I KNOW WHAT I WANT. HOW ABOUT YOU?

Its the 4th day after the truth revealed, still in the mix feeling condition. Not too happy yet not too sad so still consider okay. LOL. I have so much to say but hardly express out through words. Hmm, where should I start? Lets begin in this way, last week I watched two movies which were Into The Storm and The Fault In Our Stars. I learnt a lot from both movies. Both movies have one similarity which is we will never know what happen next, things are really unpredictable. We should live everyday like our last day. Seriously, you should watch it and you will eventually understand what I mean. After all we live for our own, we shouldn't care so much on how's other judge us. Its not important!

Out of sudden I have so many 'to achieve list' which kinda pressure. I targeted to achieve all these in 2 years time, most probably by the time I graduate. Let me share with you my goals: 

1. Flat tummy / slim down / 50kg

2. Pass every paper at first attempt

3. Improve my english language

4. Develop a finance and economy brain 

5. Always look good in performing myself

So far just 5, guess will be increased in real soon. I'm ready for the challenge. I failed my F5 progress test 1, 2.5 more marks to pass and I did a few careless mistakes. Well, its no point to cry over spilled milk. Its a good start for me, I will definitely fight harder for the next progress test which is in 3 weeks time. I'm much much more better than last sem. I can feel my passion and keep fighting spirit, maybe its because I know by hook or by crook I have to pass and graduate on time. The past should remind in the past. I don't need people who pull me down so for those who under this category I beg and please you to stay away from me. People, lets keep fighting for better day! =) 

THE END.

FATED. I have been missing him almost everyday and I wish I could meet him accidentally like my friends.Its out my expectation that in few minutes time my question was answered. I was talking about him with joanne,engsing and waisum when we were on our way to midvalley. Its a shock to meet him there. Well, I was stunted  and I wonder why he has to avoid my eye sight when he saw me. Its like, whats wrong? You can just give me a smile right? I dunno why but after all I think its really time for me to move on. I really thank GOD, GOD treat me so good that he gave me an answer which I was looking for so much all these while. I didn't tear and this is the best part . =) Maybe he is just not my MR.RIGHT and all I need to do is wait for the right one. Anyway, long lasting love for both of them. <3

The Most Crucial Week.

I DID IT, I PASSED MY F4 (LAW) PAPER!!! Arghhhhhhhhh, this is totally out of my expectation. To be frank, I slacked a lot during last semester. I did'nt put 100% effort on it. I deserve it if I fail but thank God for giving me second chance. Really really thank GOD. 

I appreciate everything I have. Sometimes I do think I'm the luckiest child. My dad gave me the opportunity to pursue my dream at sunway college and my mum gave me her car for my convenient in kl, ended up she dont get the chance to drive in Ipoh (guilty to the max). With all these how can I fail my paper and disappoint them? I know my parents dont have any expectation on me but I do. I do think its my responsibility to pass every paper. 

I was super and super disappointed with myself once I stepped out from the exam hall on 9.6.14 because I knew I did it badly. From that moment onwards I know my F4 is hopeless and I kept putting the blame on myself. Why ,Why and Why I slacked so much till I screwed the paper? 

The moment when I got the result I teared, although it isnt a high mark score but at least I passed, I didnt wasted my dad's hard earn money.I will never make the same mistake anymore. Now I know my goals pretty well. I know I have to work super hard on it and all these will be worthwhile in future. Thank GOD for giving me another chance! 

Two days before result day, I decided to have a conversation with Tyler through Fb messenger because I think its time for me to decide whether to stay or move on. I know pretty well that there will be no answer if I just sit and wait for miracle to happen. Not that I dont believe in miracle but isnt this way. So I actually put him into decision making plan. I will decide in this way : if he replies, then there might be hope but if he dont, I will just keep the memories and set him as my role model. Till now, the message is still unseen.