The Most Crucial Week.

I DID IT, I PASSED MY F4 (LAW) PAPER!!! Arghhhhhhhhh, this is totally out of my expectation. To be frank, I slacked a lot during last semester. I did'nt put 100% effort on it. I deserve it if I fail but thank God for giving me second chance. Really really thank GOD. 

I appreciate everything I have. Sometimes I do think I'm the luckiest child. My dad gave me the opportunity to pursue my dream at sunway college and my mum gave me her car for my convenient in kl, ended up she dont get the chance to drive in Ipoh (guilty to the max). With all these how can I fail my paper and disappoint them? I know my parents dont have any expectation on me but I do. I do think its my responsibility to pass every paper. 

I was super and super disappointed with myself once I stepped out from the exam hall on 9.6.14 because I knew I did it badly. From that moment onwards I know my F4 is hopeless and I kept putting the blame on myself. Why ,Why and Why I slacked so much till I screwed the paper? 

The moment when I got the result I teared, although it isnt a high mark score but at least I passed, I didnt wasted my dad's hard earn money.I will never make the same mistake anymore. Now I know my goals pretty well. I know I have to work super hard on it and all these will be worthwhile in future. Thank GOD for giving me another chance! 

Two days before result day, I decided to have a conversation with Tyler through Fb messenger because I think its time for me to decide whether to stay or move on. I know pretty well that there will be no answer if I just sit and wait for miracle to happen. Not that I dont believe in miracle but isnt this way. So I actually put him into decision making plan. I will decide in this way : if he replies, then there might be hope but if he dont, I will just keep the memories and set him as my role model. Till now, the message is still unseen.